How to Make a Queer Science Fiction and Fantasy Writer Out of the Bible 

Jerome Stueart

detail from “Consider the Half-Life of Roses,” Jerome Stueart, (11 x 14) watercolor, pen and mixed media, 2025.

Craft him from Sunday School stories,
Daniel and those stoic lions, men walking in fire,
stormy Elijah, placid Elisha, prophets intimately bound
together.  Show him a God

who parts seas, walks beside his people a tornado of flame,
doles out miracles, and makes donkeys talk and angels
rescue, and bones live.  Show him giants, and Ezekiel’s wheel-
like spaceship, Elijah’s fiery chariot

in the sky. Tell him of Jonathan and David’s love,
the eunuch’s favor for Daniel, the Roman Centurion and his
boy.  But if you don’t tell him they were queer, he will queer
the stories anyway from

what he doesn’t see. Read him C.S. Lewis’ talking lion,
brave children voyaging across seas and Narnia; those satyrs
and centaurs will be his.  You tell him stories and myths,
and he will do the magic himself

to make those bones live.  They will rainbow-shield his faith from the wrath
of your Church.  When they throw stones, a hundred storied lions
will surround him, saying “I am here.”  When your waves threaten to capsize
his spirit, he will remember a friendly whale

of a way out.  And he will dive deep, and imagine a world where queer
heroes save the people, like they did in the Bible.  But he’ll have to hide
them in satyrs, starships, and lions like Lewis did, because you can’t
bear the truths of the Divine

outside of Story.  Oh, he will tell you of miracles you can perform,
of fiery chariots you can pilot, of love you can have.  He will save you,
with the Spirit you unleashed in him—and—if you’re truly blessed,
he will walk beside you, a pillar of fire

animating your very bones.

(originally published in Rock & Sling, June 2018)


My essay, “To the Stars, Through Hardship: Strange New Worlds and Uncovering Past Trauma” is up at Reactor Magazine

Over at Reactor Magazine, formerly Tor.com, I have a new essay that analyzes an episode of Star Trek and how it brought up some unresolved trauma in my life. While I know that sounds fun, it’s really about the importance of good science fiction in the world—for many reasons, but also for highlighting where we are still hurting each other and some of the unresolved trauma we carry on a societal level.

I’m happy to have had an essay published in such a good online magazine. Thank you, Managing Editor, Bridget McGovern!

I’d been working unsuccessfully for a few years on an essay about this particular time in my life–my coming out in a small Yukon city–and trying to shape it. But I couldn’t get my head around it. It felt like old stuff, tiresome stuff, and frankly, painful stuff. Who wants to read about that?

So, this essay that was published was my attempt to break it down into smaller chunks— using this episode of Star Trek: Strange New Worlds as a secret backdoor to talk about it.

I mean, the episode was significant. It startled me into taking care of myself in a different way. Instead of forgetting the past, or putting the past in the past, it was important to look at how the past invades our present.

I think it’s important for us to be gentle with ourselves when it comes to the past. Unresolved trauma can appear like depression, anger, fear, destructive behaviors. I’m not a medical doctor, but I do know that trauma can stay in the body…and mask itself, and continue to hurt us.

We need to deal with it so that our loved ones (and us too) aren’t continually hurt by it. So this was my attempt at dealing with it–since it came up so suddenly while watching Star Trek with my partner one night.

How do you heal past trauma and make residual pain go away?

Come over to Reactor Magazine and read how I tried to figure that out.